Hello, I am basically a gal who loves God, her family and of course her dear dear Clark. Hmm not to forget my friends too! Currently in the process of finding out what she really wants to do for her life and prays that everyday is a good day with all her loved ones. :)

Sometimes i find it scary that people choose to shut themselves off from others.
To me the worst kind of attitude and the one that i m afraid to face most
is the attitude of indifference and choosing to avoid someone.

No reasons, no explanations, losing contact.
i am not saying i m not guilty off those.
in fact i had committed them
to some guys before
and now as i recalled was qutie a childish behaviour.

But sometimes it's exasperating for me to face them now
usually it's from my church members
because i really thought we were friends...
and it's sad to me to face this kind of thing
because it felt bad to be rejected.

I am not judging or condemning them
i believe and understand to some extent why
they choose to do this
if it's me most prob i will too
because i wouldn't know what to explain to the rest.

I dun know...
it just feel bad to be ignored or forgotten.
I think i would feel very bad if my birthday was forgotten
phonecalls or sms ignored or being avoided by someone else.

I felt as though they chose to erase me from their past
and i felt sad because i had put in effort in those friendships...
my ushers, my cgm, my peers in the ministry and as well as my friends in the church.
When people choose to cut off contact or backslide,
I felt sad because the relationship was never quite the same again.