Hello, I am basically a gal who loves God, her family and of course her dear dear Clark. Hmm not to forget my friends too! Currently in the process of finding out what she really wants to do for her life and prays that everyday is a good day with all her loved ones. :)

Today was a day i lost it all and i can't believe just how much i have lost it.
It was my lab day and a session whereby we got to perform tests to identify the unknown compounds that were given to us.
Frankly i dun really know wat to do so i went to the prof
he say do A. and i do A. and TA1 (teaching assistant 1) say no u shld do B.
concerned if what i did previously would affect the result i went to ask TA2 a simple question would it affect?
He is the worst smoke bomb i ever seen.
Instead of helping me he is making more problems for me.
and his attitude.
and i was telling my fren i truly felt like punching him.

Then at that moment
I felt the Holy Spirit
started to prompt me.
Then wouldn't you have done the very thing that u dislike others to do?
I repented.
It ain't easy but i m glad i got a helper like Him
God knows our weaknesses and constantly prompts us to change.
We ain't perfect but if He has prompted us do not be hesitant to change and lift it to Him.

anyway, i think i really lose my character today
even though i didn't lose my temper or anything
just the thought and dwelling on those thoughts i feel
are already not healthy.
this is a negative example.

i was also very tired
i struggled very much today.
I wasn't forecasted for chair
because i have 2 tuition sessions
then 1 suddenly postponed.
and i was tempted to stick it to that way and go home and rest.
In the end i came down.
because i wanna be an example for my usher.
so i reached home at 430 grabbed my laptop and reached my student's place by 510. give tuition then come down to expo and reached at 815.

I was real tired
until i dun really know what i m doing
thank God i met 81 on the tanah merah train
she brightened up my journey for a while
and prevented me from reaching church with a black face
and the presence of God in the house
was enough to energize me again.

This is my usual lab scene. I used to have more apparatus in my fumehood.



6 hrs of work for such little amount of compound.