Hello, I am basically a gal who loves God, her family and of course her dear dear Clark. Hmm not to forget my friends too! Currently in the process of finding out what she really wants to do for her life and prays that everyday is a good day with all her loved ones. :)

Time: 3:24pm

someone is making me feel so guilty...

let's put it this way. we used to chat quite often when we were in section 4 but ever since he 'strayed' away from the ministry to cg... and with my own personal things... i have to admit we kind of meet up and talk much lesser... then he had to add in his blog about how one of my msg encouraging him.

u know sometimes i wonder who have i really influenced and impacted or at least touched in this life yet? I would read others' blog about how as a team leader they would have ushers telling them gratefully that they have impacted their lives... N i would feel one word: envy. ha. Not that i work for the praises of men but... i guess a little affirmation won't hurt right. i guess i should be grateful as long as my ushers dun keep teasing me.

Once i received a sms from a leader asking me abt a certain thing which i thot i had clarified with her yest. frankly speaking, i feel a bit 'sian'. i m sorry for feeling this way but tat's my first reaction. i guess because of her tone bah. Pst Kong shared with us in class about many of such things to be faced in leadership which includes church politics and many other stuff but when things like that happen it's still a bit sian.

In the beginning i was a bit lost because i dun know why people have to shout at each other to get things done. i dun know why people are so unappreciative at times. It took me a long time for the pictures to get clearer to me. In the midst of it, i complain and ask God a lot of times. why why why. U see i m not afraid to ask God things because i believe He will ans and there's no question too tough for Him. Slowly but surely He speaks to me after some hard lessons and incidents.

Well this is a fallen down world. No one is perfect people lose tempers and stuff. ME including ( well i believe i mus have ask others like this before also) At the end of it it's how we respond to the matter that matters to God. Now, my current attitude is it's ok. Anything just say sorry first, clarify at the end let go and let God. Doesn't matter who's right who's wrong, God will judge at the end time. for now, just do our best for God and serve His kingdom well. Get many people saved and set others free. Dun give the devil a foothold in our lives.

Of course, we do meet nice and supportive leaders and thank God for them. They make me who i m today. I am grateful for my SLs only 2 actually ha caiyun and flo. my cgls. Minghui aka karista, Chua and his wife Jocelyn, Elaine and Serene.