Hello, I am basically a gal who loves God, her family and of course her dear dear Clark. Hmm not to forget my friends too! Currently in the process of finding out what she really wants to do for her life and prays that everyday is a good day with all her loved ones. :)

Hi i finally have some time off to just relax myself (though not for long because of the SOT assignment) to reflect upon what i have learned for the past week.

i have fallen sick. my throat is feeling sore n my mouth hurts whenever i bite something. and my oseophagus area or is it the lungs hurt whenever i cough. it could be the weather that is causing this. i remembered once when i was in jc 2 i think, the weather turned cold and i had a very bad case of cold cough. I would cough till i vomit my food and medicine out almost everyday. When i was taking a bus, i kept coughing and it was so bad that i had to get out and vomit. Hence, i get a bit concerned whenever the weather starts to turn cold or erratic. I pray i would not get this kind of cough again. amen.

during SOT, pst ming talked abt how he used to serve in the church before. he would set up the instruments and then become an usher and b4 svc starts be the one who flash the transparencies for praise and worship and then become an usher and then clear the instruments and then have a quick lunch and went for his bible studies after. This kind of lifestyle continued for up to 5 years and mind you he did this every week.

I am amazed seriously because it seems as though jus serving for a while every week at expo is burning many of the ushers out and what's more that he led this kind of lifestyle for 5 years. Actually it's just not pst ming, pst chee kiang and many ZS had shared with us b4 how they used to serve God and many of them really serve every week almost like this as well. As I heard their stories, I began to ponder what is it that really cause so many of the leaders and ushers to feel tired, to backslide.

Was it really due to the serving? that they had no rest? Or was it because they had not been receiving enough to boost themselves for the serving? I think it's more of the latter than the former. Throughout SOT i truly felt that serving God is enjoyable it shouldn't be a chore. When you are really doing something you like it's no longer work. it becomes Play. Now how many of u will mind playing every week or every day? I wouldn't mind. But the thing is serving had become a chore for many ppl even leaders nowadays. Some of them I observed and like what Dear shared with me are more interested in serving the Ministry rather than God. During the Word, they dun pay attention using the duty as a form of excuse that they are not paying attention to the Word. Let me tell you, pls do not think you will love God more than you love His Word. You can only love God to the extent you love His Word. But i think some of the ushers and leaders do not realize this and lose focus during sermon time. Sooner or later, they no longer hunger after God. and when crisis strike at their ministry, they then realized how unstable their foundation is.

hmm LEADERS who had shared with me how tired they are, if u r reading this, let me recommend a good way to recharge yourselves. HUNGER after God's Word and presence. if you need to pull yourselves out for a little while to do this do so. DUN jus think that by giving yourselves a break, u sleep more, shop more u can get back your strength. Let me tell you a better way. Truly hunger for more of God's Word. It is the best strength potion, better than even taking a break in itself. THat's y u see the many psts and zs y do they not fall away after so many years of ministry?

You see you can get discouraged in the ministry by people. Even after you share not much might still have been done. Then you get frustrated and tired and repeatedly this takes a toll at your heart. The thing about loving God's Word is it really encourages your heart. Even if you have tried many things and yet nothing much is done, you can still put your trust in God that He sees it and will do something for your good. Through His Word, you get wisdom and encouragment. Then at the end of the day, you might even end up loving this people who frustrates you just like how God loves His people.

I need to encourage myself up. To keep on trying on. To know that no mountains i can't remove and overcome.