Hello, I am basically a gal who loves God, her family and of course her dear dear Clark. Hmm not to forget my friends too! Currently in the process of finding out what she really wants to do for her life and prays that everyday is a good day with all her loved ones. :)

this week is really a hectic week for me. there are so many things to be accomplished this week. by now, i really felt like dropping dead.

Thursday - went for support. all the way till abt 10+. then reach home at 1220 or so.

Friday - got to wake up at abt 745. having tuition at 9am. then went down to expo for a quick lunch, meeting and the battle starts. (what i m going to say later on may sound unfamiliar for those not in the ministry) the whole network was bombarded by 80. right from the start all the way to the end.

Saturday - did stage. tell u something i was so busy with stage and liasing with jiajun's mother to let him come that i forgot to go join my cg. sigh talk abt helping. i m so sorry, elaine. help out till 11. too late for train, the rest wanna eat something before they go home so went to eat n reach home at 135am n i paid abt 10 dollars of cab fare.

Sunday - woke up at 730 to wait for jiajun n jiaan n yongjin. took a cab down to expo n the ride was an astonishing amt of 19.60. gosh. thank God yongjin was there. he helped me to take care of the small kids and pay for their food. so grateful. went for svc 4.

after svc took them to arcade n play with them for a while. took them to the train station and send jiajun to cck for his guitar lesson n jiaan to his home at yew tee. then go back to the same line travelled down to tiong bahru again for tuition. was hoping that my student would be at home at 3pm instead of the agreed 5pm for tuition. she can't make it at 3pm so went to MAC for a meal and surf the net and did some project work. was too tired n fell asleep at mac. then took the bus down to her place n had tuition at 5 to 630. i call my dad to @@ if he could fetch me n i want to say THANK GOD and PA! he could n came n fetch me at 635. i m like so close to tears because i m really feeling VERY tired n i really want to go home n bathe n rest.

the idea of taking a bus to tiong bahru. then the train to jurong east. then change to cck then LRT back home at this peak hour i m so gonna cry. when i went to dad's car i just collapse at the passenger seat n lie down all the way to rest.

Y m i so detailed about this week? because i wan to remind myself something important. you know when i m going through this week, certain thoughts came to my mind. Y M I DOING ALL THIS? i m spending so much money n TIME to do all these. let me tell you it's really not easy having to serve and at the same time bring friends. i was originally allocated for ALL SERVICES. n it really take a bit of an effort to rearrange here n there. i even had to last min tell suzhen i can't help her at all because my nephews need me to bring them home.

wat's more u serve so hard but not everyone seems to appreciate all u have done because i keep removing their seats. this is understandable lah. but yet we got to do it. it's easier nowadays because many of the cgls have been 'briefed' by their ZS not to book seats but still all u need is one unreasonable person to book seats n this can really make your day.

Sunday is the best. i can't imagine the number of trips that i need to take just to bring jiajun and jiaan to svc. although they did not respond but i really feel that they are potential especially jiajun. it was really a prompting to invite him and i felt that Holy Spirit telling me that this will be a seed sown in his heart for future growth. yeah so i m not worried cause i know it's a long term investment. Then i still have a tuition. i will go mad if my father did not drive me back. I think it's true that God knows to what extent can we take things. He will stretch u but not over-stretch.

i really need a good rest. i m going to create the rest myself. i dun wan to burn myself out.

i know it's a long passage n if u manage to see to this point it means u r really interested in my life ha. anyway i dun usually show my love to other people through words of affirmation or touch like hugs n stuff. Although they are my primary love languages for receiving i dun give them much. if u ever receive them from me pls dun take it for granted i really use a bit of effort to give them. I usually give out quality time ( to the best of my ability ). hence i would really appreciate any forms of encouraging words, appropriate physical touches especially massage especially during this month. i m not very good at giving them out so pardon me if u dun receive much of it.

i m so gonna rest well. i still welcome calls to my phone! i love calls. a good rest also means a good chat with my friends to release my stress. but of course not relentless calling. i will kill u. calls at appropriate time and length are highly encouraged. thanks.