Hello, I am basically a gal who loves God, her family and of course her dear dear Clark. Hmm not to forget my friends too! Currently in the process of finding out what she really wants to do for her life and prays that everyday is a good day with all her loved ones. :)

was looking at a few frens' blogs... and many of them are going through what i term as identity crisis or the pre-21 syndrome. The things they define themselves on are falling apart now and they are struggling to find a new one for support. What is my life defined of? Love. I am defined by how m i loved, who loved me and who i love. In short relationships.

When i was young i thot that love = bgr and that i strongly believe in fairy-tales love relationship. My lover will be my protector and always be there for me. I always get fascinated by the male lead characters i see on tv. Guys who never forget the girls they had promised their everlasting love to. No matter what happens, they only have eyes for each other.

Well i soon realise, though the above description is great, it's definitely not realistic. haha. And i struggle through much of my jc life especially in finding what love really is to me. I get confused easily because i think a lot and i went through a mini crisis in my life. Nothing makes much sense to me during this period of time. There's always a sense of emptiness within me.

Then i met my Lord. Though sometimes busyness of the day can dull my experience of Him but He is my never-changing support in my life. In certain sense, i pity those who never really met Him and think He is just a emotional reassurance. He is more than that if you would allow yourself to know Him even more.

Well you might want to ask do i have a definition of love i can hold on to now? Maybe yes maybe not. i m not so sure yet but i definitely have found someone to love. I dun have the fullest definition of love yet. But i guess love at this stage to me is selfless, putting the others above self, patience, understanding, commitment, faithful and learning to take care of myself for others' sake etc. (still learning to do them hee)

Today peifen is made complete because of the love you have poured into my love in the past, present or future.
will i still have identity crisis? maybe... but it's also because of the crisis that i always think back of your love to me.
Maybe this journey will not be easy... but it's ok i have your love with me and i will move on even when there are times i felt like giving up in the battle of life... (yeah lately i m quite sick of ppl misunderstanding me)

my fren (thinking of what i just saw in his/her blog) will you be well again? (random thot)